last pelargonium

It was really quite white
when I found it,
the last pelargonium,
but I was on a budget
and it was reduced
so I bought it
although really I wanted a pink one.

It’s a ‘mårbacke’, said the florist.
It’s a traditional kind.
But it was white
so I doubted.
Do you know the place?
I didn’t.
It is the home of a famous writer,
Selma Lagerlöf.
A current barely stirred.

And anyway,
I was on a budget
so I bought it
although it wasn’t pink,
but white.

I stood my white pelargonium
in a mixing bowl.
I didn’t own a plant pot
and was on a budget.
A mixing bowl was all I had.

It stood, a little self-conscious
on my step.  Two flowers giving me
joy, but white, and no others
arrived to join them.

I looked up Lagerlöf:
A woman writer
native to this land,
winning prizes,
when women didn’t.

I wished my plant was pink.

I went away for work,
asked an almost-neighbour
to water my pelargonium.
She took it in its mixing bowl,
didn’t comment.

A while later I returned,
settled in and eventually went
to retrieve the last pelargonium.
It has probably died, I told myself
to preempt disappointment.
The neighbour may not have been there
all the time.  It’s been hot.

I wandered up the path,
curved around the corner.
I spied the last pelargonium
covered in flowers.

They were pink.

a very golden sunlight

a very golden sunlight
shafts suddenly across leaves
yellowed with glowing
oldness.
Illuminates memory,
gilding years of
subtle pain,
revealing glories
yet unknown,
to come, yes, to come,

the cold grass is dappled
for a moment,
warm here and there.

the red squirrel pauses
with its golden acorn,
tentative, suddenly
awareness rich,
hesitant to scurry
to store its treasure
for another day.

gone grey a moment,
mundanity takes
back its familiar
places, but not forever;
a golden knowing lingers.