Maybe I reached the mid-point.
All hell broke loose anyway. Trained as I am to look for symmetries in literature, I look for the same symmetries in the stories of my own life.
Often there is a turbulence around the most important point.
Something is trying to break in or out and something else is resisting it.
It’s exhausting and my own choices will be the flap of the butterfly’s wings that make completion or collapse.
Or at least my own choices are all that I can affect personally; destiny, other people, circumstances are not for me to decide.
In the middle of the turbulence I must summon everything within me to hold steady to what I know is most true, most full of hope, most kind.
If I hold steadier than the resistance presses on me, the depth of something else will break through.
I will be past the mid-point.
I still may not know what the something else is until much later.
The turbulence will persist for some days.
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