I am a sea for you, and all my
other realities, hang
longingly, waiting
an intensification of the waves, tender pink,
growing moody, faint mauve hues, rose absolue,
crimson interdit
almost red, almost dark, almost night, almost
dawn
roiling, I lurch another night
unknowing, other
to myself and to those who know me
daytime
a restless wakening, a dreamless
depth, a haunting utter knowing
beyond, beyond
the stars arrive,
intensification of light
patient, delighting
eternal, vanishing,
shine singing
vanquishing
the sea the sea, it wrestles
warm, hot, cool, chill within me,
I hope, I pray
Note: This poem was written in response to an abstract watercolour painted to a recording of myself playing Einaudi’s Divenire. I played this for the first time this morning having had no access to a piano for the previous three years. It was full of mistakes, hesitations and interruptions, but beautiful.